Breaking My Fresh Start on a Monday Ritual

Hi There!

We’ve made it to the middle of the week my friends.  Just a few more days until the weekend and I can’t wait!  There’s nothing particularly special planned, at least that I’m aware of, but I always look forward to spending some down time with Rob.  It’s the little things, like being able to grab some Starbucks together and go for a drive.  Those are the times that I enjoy most.

I Love Every Moment With This Guy

He Makes Me Smile

Moving along….

It’s the second day of my new program and I love it!  I received my program Monday evening and started scouring through all of the information immediately.  Let me tell ya, it was a lot to take in.  I jotted down what I needed for the following morning and was up and at ‘em first thing to get my workout in.

Rob thought I was a nut because I was up even earlier than usual to fit everything in.  I really think this is a great, healthy and well structured program that will keep me on track to reach my fitness goals.  I’m looking forward to the transformation to unfold before my eyes.  Wouldn’t it be nice if it happened as easily as I just stated?  😉 

It’s going to take a lot of hard work and discipline, but this is my dream, right?  Sometimes, you have to sacrifice to get the end result you’re hoping for.

Normally, I like to start new routines on Mondays. 

I guess it’s the feeling that you’re starting along with a new work week.  The slate is wiped clean and you’re ready for a fresh start.  It’s become a ritual of mine for the past decade or so. 

When I received my program on Monday night I told myself that this time was going to be different.  Life doesn’t wait for the right moment to make things happen and neither was I!  I wasn’t going to wait an ENTIRE week just so I could begin my new journey on a Monday.  No sir!  Now, when Monday comes around again I’ll already be 7 days closer to my goal than if I had waited.  Sounds good to me!

Now, it’s just about time to get back to work.  I don’t know how I’m not falling asleep at my desk right now.  Between the gray weather, the early mornings, the late to beds and kicking booty in my workouts I’m wiped out!

Do you have any rituals with starting something new in your life?

Have a great day!

Kim

The Best Boyfriend EVER

Hey Guys!

How are you?  I don’t know about you, but our office was closed yesterday for the Martin Luther King holiday.  So, this gray, rainy, cold fine lookin’ Tuesday is my Monday.  There are meetings galore scheduled for this week, so I’ve been a busy girl scheduling caterers, creating reports and making booklets.  At leat the day is moving along quickly.

I had a ton of stuff on my “to do” list for this weekend,

However, there was a change in my plans when I caught wind of something going on back home in CT.  I could have done some stuff right from NY, but I felt that it was necessary that I make the drive to support my loved ones.  I was nervous to talk about an issue at hand and knew that being able to sit next to the person while I said it would make things better.  Rob agreed.  It was emotionally stressing, but it was the best thing to do.  Now, we have the ball rolling and I hope the right decisions are made.  Sorry to be so vague.  Everything is ok though. 🙂

Alas, my “to dos” just weren’t meant to be.  I did however check the #1 “To Do” off of my list and that’s really what’s most important, right? 😉

What was #1 you ask?

  1. Stop wearing my youngest sister’s, friend’s old winter coat. Get a new, warmer winter coat!

You can’t see too much of it in this picture, but at least there’s a little tidbit to show ya.

Rob actually had to force me to get it and he couldn’t have timed it better!  We got it Saturday afternoon, right before the deep chill hit that evening. Brrrr!!!!  The jacket has been keeping me nice ‘n’ toasty ever since!

Rob must have felt he needed to be deemed as the “Best Boyfriend EVER”, because he later took me to the mall, where he spoiled treated me to this fabulous Michael Kors iPhone case.Michael Kors has been an expensive lil obsession of mine lately.  I seem to be drawn to anything M.K. without knowing it’s part of the M.K. collection, until seeing the tag. 

Hey, at least I know I like it for the right reason, instead of just the label, right?  😉

We made it home, unwound a bit, Rob’s parents stopped over for a lil while and then we ran back out into the deep freeze to catch a movie.

We both liked it!

Then, being the old folks that we are, we headed home to watch tv from the comfort of our bed.

Saturday was the perfect day together.  I may be biased, but to me Rob really is the best boyfriend EVER (yes, caps are necessary).  Not only is he thoughtful and caring, but he’s extremely supportive of me.  I know that my mom must be thankful for me to be with him, especially when she’s not there to wipe away the tears or give me a hug the way she would in certain situations.

Sunday morning I headed out early to make my way to CT.  Before getting on the highway, I made a vital pit stop at Starbucks for my beloved Awake Tea.  Let me tell ya, a Venti size was necessary (it almost always is for me).

Venti Please

Gotta Love The First Sip

 Focusing on My Journey Ahead

All in all, the ride wasn’t bad.  I must have timed it just right, because there was no traffic.  SCORE!!

I was happy to visit with my mom, one of my sister’s, my sister’s boyfriend and their puppy, Oliver. Aside from the issue at hand, it was a great visit.  There’s never enough time with family for me.

Now, I really must get back to work, but I wish you a great week ahead and hope that your weekend was wonderful!

Kim

Banana Muffin Meltdown

Hi Friends!

Wednesday again!  I swear, where does the time go?  As I get older time, seems to move faster and faster.  Can we say SCARY?!?!

Lately, so much has been going on in both my personal and professional life that I feel like there’s never time to just breathe and be in the moment.  Luckily, many of those things are positive.  Others, like work stress and Rob’s surgery become a little much to handle at times.

Side Track – Surgery went very smoothly for Rob.  We were at the hospital for 12 hours, but the surgery itself was under 2 hours.  I was happy to see his loving smile in the recovery room.  He was all mushy.  I wish I had a video camera to show him how sweet he was.  He’s still in pain, with limited mobility, but at least the worst is over with (knock on wood).

Back on Track – Lack of sleep and heightened emotions from worry and stress had me very cranky after work yesterday.  I felt like a zombie and food wasn’t very appealing to me.  I had some ripe bananas that I decided I would make banana muffins with, but couldn’t find my whole wheat flour for the life of me.  Rob saw me searching cabinets and the freezer multiple times.  I know it is somewhere in that kitchen.  Where it is, I have no clue….

Anyway, the banana was already mashed and in the bowl, along with some all-purpose flour.  After 10 minutes of searching the entire thing just got dumped into the garbage.  I didn’t have the energy to deal with something so unimportant, in the grand scheme of things.  I could have made the muffins with what I had, but I was so annoyed with not being able to find the whole wheat flour, after a day of annoying situations at work, that the best solution for me was to trash everything.

I then made myself a quick omelet and cuddled up to Rob for the rest of the night.  He’s still in so much pain.  It’s hurts me to see what he’s going through and not be able to take the pain away for him.  I feel like I’m constantly hovering around him, but at least he knows that I care. 😉

The last thing I wanted to do this morning was wake up extra early to make it to a training session at the gym.  I wouldn’t allow myself to back out and was proud of myself once it was all over and done with.  The trainer doesn’t want me losing any more weight.  Now, we’re focusing on “toning” up and building some muscle.  Of course, this means I really need to work on upping my calories (the hardest part for me….of all things).

I’m looking forward to this week being over and taking the weekend to be with Rob and also to take some much-needed “Me Time”.  All the go, go, GO has really been wearing me out and I feel like I might have a breakdown….literally.

Ok, time to get some more work done.  A little less than 4 hours left here.  Can’t wait to be on my way back home!

Wishing you a Wonderful Wednesday!

Kim

When You Know Too Much

Hey There,

It’s Friday!  Yay!!!  I’ve been looking forward to today since…..well, since Sunday night. LOL.  Is that bad?  😉

I haven’t mentioned it, but I’ve been kind of depressed lately.  I don’t know if it’s the change in weather, feeling overwhelmed with life in general (work, obligations, searching for a car before my current lease is up, fixing my car before turning it in, not having time for myself), worrying about Rob, or being disappointed that I haven’t been able to do certain things just yet.  I’m kind of taking each day as it comes and getting through it as best I can.  I really need a few mental health days, but I don’t think that will happen until the new year, which seems so far off right now.  Anyway….

Do you ever find that the more you know about a certain subject the more confusing things can be?  Do you find it more difficult to just take what others say and go with it?  I was thinking about this as I was driving into work this morning.  As we know, I can be my own worst enemy, especially when it comes to nutrition/fitness.  I’ve read so many things and spoken with so many professionals over the years. Everyone out there has a different theory and reason why their method is best.  Certain information contradicts other information and can be quite confusing when you’re trying to make sense of it all.

When I initially lost the bulk of my weight in high school it was like I was working with a clean slate.  I had no idea about nutrition, other than the fact that sweets and junk food probably weren’t the best choices while trying to lose weight or for good health in general.  During that time, I learned more about calories, about making healthier food choices and about incorporating exercise into my routine.  It was very basic, but it worked.

Over the years, my obsession with nutrition and fitness grew.  It seems I can no longer rely on the basics that helped me to reach my initial goal.  Back then, a personal trainer set my meals up for me and I blindly followed her advice….and it worked.  Now, I find that I question EVERYTHING.  I need to know “why” something is set up a certain way, how they came to the conclusion of what my intake should be and how come things might be different from something that they told me a month before.   I seem to be unable to just receive information and go with it.  I’m sure my life would be easier if I could take all of the questions out of the equation and listen to what I’m being told. 

I was up until 1AM this morning working on nutrition.  When my alarm sounded I was exhausted and sadly stumbled out of bed with no more answers than before I started my research and calculations.  I mentioned to Rob, while getting ready, that I so badly wish that I didn’t know as much as I do.  I wish things could just be simple again.  I wish that I could be like my sisters and mom, not worrying about the component of nutrients that make up a meal.  They don’t weigh their food or worry if a meal doesn’t have protein.  They are able to pick up a cookie if they crave it and eat it without guilt.  The last time my brain was free to do any of those things was when I was a child.  I wish I could go back.

I find this to be the case in many areas of my life, but I see it most in my nutrition/fitness, because it is something I’m constantly focused on.  Is this something that you deal with in areas of your life? 

I actually think that my desire to step on stage is because I already do so many of the things that competitors do.  I just don’t have the body that shows how much I put into it all….and that frustrates me.  I’ve put so much time and energy into this over the years that other areas of my life now aren’t what they should be.  I wish I had other passions that were strong enough to allow me to escape my own mental prison.

In the grand scheme of things there are so many worse things that I could be dealing with.  I should be thankful for my health and all of the other positive things in my life.

Rob Update:

Onto more important things…..Rob has his surgery scheduled for Monday, but we’re still unsure of the time.  Please keep him in your thoughts.  It should be a minor surgery, but it’s surgery all the same.  Just want my man to not be in pain anymore. 😦

Wishing you a wonderful weekend!

Kim

My Banana-Chocolate-Milk & Cookies Coffee Creation

Good Morning, Friends!

How’s this Wednesday treating you?  So far so good in my neck of the woods!

I started my day with some functional strength training.  I didn’t want to be at the gym when I first got there, but after a quick 5 minute warm-up on treadmill I was ready to kick some booty….and I did!

Then, I treated myself to the best protein shake I’ve ever created (at least in my opinion) to refuel myself.  

 Kim’s Banana-Chocolate-Milk & Cookies Coffee Creation:

  •  ½ cup Unsweetened Chocolate Almond Milk
  • 1 scp Chocolate Protein Powder (I used BSN Lean Dessert Chocolate Fudge)
  • ¼ Frozen Banana
  • Handful of Ice Cubes (guesstimating ½ cup)
  • San Marco Iced Milk & Cookies Flavored Coffee (I made this yesterday and had it iced and waiting for me this morning)

I always add my ingredients into my Magic Bullet in the same way.  First, I’ll put some liquid.  In this case it was the almond milk, but normally I use water.  Then, I throw in a scoop of protein powder, my frozen fruit and the ice.  Lastly, I top it off with some additional liquid (the iced coffee in this case).  I just eyeball the liquid I top it off with.  It probably ranges from ¼ – ½ cup.  I fill until the ice cubes start to separate from each other/float a little.  I don’t want to add to much liquid because I like my shakes nice and thick!

 Once I screw the Magic Bullet cap top on, I shake the container and then put it on the Magic Bullet base to blend.  This leads to a winning shake just about every time!     

 Let me tell ya, I was a very happy girl driving into work this morning, as I sipped my protein creation.  🙂

 The office seems quiet today, which usually means that something is brewing and random craziness will ensue in the near future.  Let’s hope that’s not the case!

 Fitness:

 In fitness news, workouts are going great!  The hardest part for me has been upping my macros to fit within my nutrition guidelines.  I wrote to my coach for check-in today and explained what’s going on in my head.  After two+ decades of being on a diet, my stomach has shrunk, but I also have many fears and I end up sabotaging myself (I am my own worst enemy at times).  I’m not going to allow myself to fall into the same patterns again.  Better to speak up now and work things out.  I asked if we could gradually increase macros instead of making such a big jump (in my eyes).  I’ll let you know what happens…

Whenever I start to doubt myself or want to veer off track I take a look at this girl right here. I know Naomi from a fitness site we used to frequent a few years ago and am so proud of her for her accomplishments!

 Daily Life:

 In other news, Rob will be going in for back surgery this week. 😦  My poor man has been in so much pain over the past few weeks.  It hurts my heart to see him struggling.  It’s minor surgery, but this is the third one he’ll be having on his back.  Please keep him in your thoughts.  I’ll keep you updated.

Oh, I just might have some positive news regarding a personal venture, by end of day.  Keep your fingers crossed for me!! I’m excited about the possibility, but don’t want to get my hopes up yet.  I literally did a happy dance last night when I figured something out.

That’s all for now, folks.  Time to get this thing called work done. :/  

Wishing you a Wonderful Wednesday!

 ❤

Kim

Family Weekend Tradition

Hi Guys!

 Sorry I’ve gone MIA.  Things have been more than a little hectic here. One of the other girls asked that I sit in her place for reception coverage this afternoon, which is granting me the time to say hello and post. So…..HELLO! 🙂

It’s a gloomy day here in NY.  The past few weeks seem to have been filled with rain.  Luckily, it’s looking like the weekend will be beautiful, which is perfect since Rob, my mom and I will be traveling to the Albany area to visit my brother for his Family Weekend at his college.

My brother is a senior this year.  I still remember holding him when he was a baby, since there’s an 11 year gap between us.  Where does the time go? I feel so old!  I can only imagine what it feels like as a parent, watching your children grow, become their own person and follow their own paths to happiness. I have a hard time letting go, so I know that will be rough for me.  Rob likes to joke that my kids will be over-loved. LOL.  I definitely take after my mom (which isn’t a bad thing). 😉

This weekend should be a nice little adventure.  We usually take the scenic route up to the school. It’s the perfect time to visit, with the leaves starting to change colors.  The area will be gorgeous in another few weeks.  I always say that I need to plan a long weekend in the area around that time.

My mom and I are usually partners in crime when we make the trip every year.  With Rob joining us we know there are a few secrets we’re going to have to fill him in on.  I’m excited to see my brother’s new townhouse (dorm), visit with my aunt and her family who live nearby and go pumpkin picking at a stand that’s around the corner from their house. It’s tradition and a must to get some pumpkins there.

Rob decided to treat us to getting a hotel room, instead of infringing upon my aunt, even though I know she’d love to have us stay with her.  We figured that my mom can visit with her sister and we can have our own little mini vacation. It’ll be fun!  I’ll be sure to take Rob’s camera with us so you can enjoy some of the scenery and the random adventures that will ensue on our road trip.

Wishing you a wonderful Wednesday!

Kim

My Security Blankets

Hi Friends!

How’s your week going so far?  It’s only Tuesday, but I’m already exhausted.  My boss leaves for Italy today and was in an all day (literally 9-5) meeting yesterday.  I had to come in early to insure that I would actually get some time with him. Then, I had to stay almost 2 hours late in order to go over everything he wanted me to work on while he’s away.

My body can’t keep up with the stress and hours here.  On top of it all, I’m definitely not paid enough to do what I do and work the number of hours that I work.  I love the majority of the people who I work with, but other than that this isn’t really worth it.  Rob has commented a number of times that he hates my job.  It isn’t even my having to work late as much as his having to deal with my being so stressed out when I get home.

Confession #1: I used to have a security blanket growing up.

When I was a baby, my Dad tried to soothe me to sleep one night. He put a blanket over his shoulder, laid me over it and rubbed my back while saying “Do naw-nees Kimmy.”  I doubt that naw-nees is a real word or if that’s how you would spell it if it were. What I do know is that naw-nees meant to go to sleep.  What my dad never would have guessed is that I would relate naw-nees to the blanket and that from then on my security blanket would be called “Naw-Nees”.

Confession #2: “Used to” is a thing of the past, in the confession above.

Let it be known that the blanket (aka Naw-Nees) has come out from hiding for the past month or so.,,,,just about the time I started to have eyelid twitches.  Rob cringes when he sees me with it because he knows why I have it.  I keep half of it at the house and the other half in the car.  I’m 32!  What’s wrong with this picture? If I ever confess to sucking on a pacifier let me know that I’m being ridiculous, ok?  😉

This weekend, I spent time with the mother of all security blankets.  I call her Mom.  I’ll tell ya, there’s nothing like being with my mom.  We get along so well and enjoy each other’s company immensely.  For me, my mom has always brought a sense of security.  No matter what age I’ve been, I could always call my mom and know that my problem would either be solved or that she would just be able to put my mind at ease until the problem was resolved.  She’s just good like that. 🙂

We made a stop at some of our favorite places while I was there, but didn’t get to hit everything that we had planned on. I then cried almost the entire way home to NY. I miss her so much and I miss CT too.  😦

Of course, I had my Rob waiting for me back at the house.  He’s another wonderful security blanket in my life.  He knew something was wrong when he saw me and when he questioned if I was ok the floodgates reopened.  The poor guy was wearing a white shirt which I quickly messed with my tears and smeared makeup. Eventually, after a bunch of hugs, he had me laughing and being silly again, in our usually Rob-Kim fashion.

I’m looking forward to more feelings of security when we visit CT this weekend for my sister’s engagement party.  Once there, I’ll be surrounded by everyone that I care about, all in one place.  Rob & my blanket will just have to do until then.  😉

Hope you’re having a great day!

Kim