Getting Off the Merry-Go-Round

Happy Friday, Friends!

I can’t explain how happy I am that less than a full workday separates me from my weekend.  I’m doing the Friday Happy Dance in my chair right now. Woot! Woot! 🙂

I was groggy when I woke up this morning and my stomach wasn’t feeling just right.  Normally, I would roll over and give myself that extra hour of sleep before getting ready for work, but I had an appointment at the gym and wasn’t going to miss it. 

Remember when I was stood up by that trainer about a month ago?  If not, you can read about it here & here.  About a week later she called with a sorry excuse of an explanation as to why she didn’t show.  I knew she was lying.  Have I mentioned how much I detest lies?  I’d rather hear the truth than know that you’re trying to pull the wool over my eyes.  She simply could have said that she had forgotten the appointment, but she didn’t.  Everyone makes mistakes.  I would have accepted that and moved on.  After hearing her excuse on my voicemail, I pressed the delete button and never called back.

On Wednesday, one of the guys at the front desk approached me during my warm-up asking if I was going to take my free sessions.  I briefly told him what happened and he promised that he was going to set me up with the best trainer they have.  Before leaving the gym, I was introduced to James and was given an appointment for this morning.

After speaking with him for the first few minutes this morning, I knew he was the right fit for my training needs.  People tend to think I’m younger than I really am (very thankful for my genes) and always try to hand me off to the newbie trainers.  Most times, I know more than they do.  I explain “THIS HAS BEEN MY LIFE FOR YEARS!”  As I responded to James’ questions his eyebrows started to arch up.  He acknowledged that I know my stuff and that he’s going to bring me to that next level that I’ve been trying to reach.

Remember when I had my knee problems (You can find some posts about it herehere & here)? Ever since then I’ve been deathly afraid of doing something wrong in the gym to make my knees flare up again.  Just a few weeks ago I started to slowly add lower body exercises into the mix.  I never run because I’m afraid of what the impact might do, but have been doing other forms of cardio.  I explained my fears and James told me how we’re going to correct the problem.  I’m excited!

Another fear of mine deals with the nutrition aspect of things.  I told James a little bit about my weight history.  We went over my meals and I impressed him with my tuna salad recipe.  Fat free greek yogurt , mixed in with a lil mustard, to add some creaminess and a zing?  Yes please! 😉  I’d take it over mayo any day of the week!

After hearing me out, he told me what I already know deep down.  He told me that I’m not eating enough.  I know that this is the root of all of my problems.  It’s why I never have enough energy, it’s why I have hit a plateau with my weight loss, it’s why I haven’t been making gains with my lifts and it’s why I eventually end up binging.  I have an honest fear about upping calories, but I know it’s what I must do.  With James’ guidance I’m going to up my cals and hopefully see the results I’ve been searching for.  I’m truly scared, but I know it must be done.  If not, I’m going to end up in the same cycle I’ve been on for years.  It’s a ride I wouldn’t wish on anyone and I want out!  I’m getting off this merry-go-round and never looking back!

What’s something that’s a true fear of yours that isn’t a second thought to someone else?  My food fears have been a struggle for as long as I can remember.  I’m much better now with adding variety and some fun to my meals.  I’m a work in progress.  My mom fears driving on the highway.  We all have our thing. 😉

Kim

Electronic Failure

Hey There,

I was all set to post about my dinner last night and thoughts that stemmed from it.  It’s really funny comparing my thoughts to Rob’s after the meal.  You’ll see what I mean when I post my write-up.  😉   

Anyway, I took pictures with my cell, which currently isn’t working….errrrrrr!  So, I decided on writing up a shorter post this afternoon and sharing my longer post this evening.  Keep your fingers crossed that my electronic failure is only short-term.  Between my camera and now my cell I don’t seem to be having much luck in the electronics department.  I swear I didn’t have my cell anywhere near water….not even a raindrop!

It’s ironic that before my cell died I was asking Rob to get in touch with a good college friend of his regarding cameras.  His friend is really into photography and I’m hoping that he’ll be able to point me in the right direction to getting a decent SLR camera for a beginner that won’t cause me to go broke.  

After making my pledge last week, I want to start spiffing the blog up, which includes better and more pictures.  I’m afraid to think of what I could do to an SLR with the string of luck I’ve been having lately with electronics.  I know my saying is “you break it, you fix it“, but sometimes there’s just no fixing or it costs more than the item is even worth.

Luckily, my cell is up for renewal in October and I’m pretty sure Verizon just sent me a text saying I can upgrade early.  It looks like a trip to Verizon is in my immediate future because I can’t live without my cell.  I hate driving anywhere without it on me, for fear that something might happen. 

When I first started driving, cell phones were something that you saw in the movie Clueless.  It wasn’t a part of my everyday world, that’s for sure.  Back then, beepers were the thing to have, even though I never had one.  Remember how large cell phones were when they first emerged?  It’s funny to look back on. 

Now, my cell phone is like a security blanket.  If anything happens or I need to vent, play catch up, or need someone to entertain me during a long drive I know my cell is there to help.  It was the first thing I touched after my accident in March to call Rob, my mom and the auto body shop.

Even though I’m annoyed with not having a cell today, I’m excited about getting a new one.  I don’t have internet access on my current phone and I’m thinking that’s the route I’ll be taking this time.  Have to think about the positives, right? 🙂

Another positive today is that I have a training session scheduled at the gym.  I’m looking forward to learning something new and I’m hoping that we’ll be working legs.  Ever since my knees had that flare up I’ve been trying to take it easy on them.  The trainer is aware of my knee situation and said that she had some ideas for me.  We shall see….

Ok, it’s about that time again.  I want to make sure that I get out right on time tonight so as I make it to the training appointment on time.

Hope you have a great day!

Kim

Getting Back In The Groove

Hey There!

Well, I’m finally back in the groove of a typical work day.   I am extremely sleep deprived today.  I’m not sure if it’s stress from all of the changes happening in my life or a reaction to the cortisone shot I had yesterday.  Once my eyelids started finally started getting heavy (3AM!) I couldn’t get into a comfortable position for my knee.  Belly down it was and I finally drifted off to sleep at some unreasonable hour.  I think the only thing that pulled me through this morning were the beams of sunlight streaming into my bedroom through the blinds.  My view definitely isn’t anything as gorgeous as what I saw from my hotel room window each morning in Mexico, but there’s something about sunshine that gets me going. 

I pulled my sleepy butt out of bed and got ready, but kept forgetting things.  Actually, during my drive I realized that I left some necessary items at my apartment that I’m going to need for tomorrow.  Errrr!!!!  To the mall I will go after work, because I need to head to Long Island tonight and my apartment is in the complete opposite direction.  Being sleep deprived with a debit card in hand at the mall might not be the best decision, but a girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do.  Ya know?  😉  I will share more about my reasoning for all of that at a later time.  I’m trying to be careful what I post because you never know who might be reading.

Anyway, work is going pretty quickly today.  I’ve been busy working on some new projects and time seems to fly for me when I’m busy.  I actually have to say that this is one of those days where there is just the right amount of work.  No thumb twiddling yet no wanting to rip my hair out either. Perfect! 

Shortly, I’ll be leaving to do a bank run for the office.  I’ve been wearing my ballet flats lately, which should help with the knee.  I imagine that years of jobs where I had to stand for hours and wearing high heels played a part in my knee issues lately.  I’ve never had the greatest knees, but those factors surely didn’t help.  My boyfriend and I also noticed that I tend to point my toes inward as I walk or if I’m just standing around.  I keep catching myself do it and am trying to make a conscious effort to keep those toes pointed straight.  I’ll keep that in mind as I make my walk down the hill to the bank.

Even with all of the craziness going on in my life I’m in a happy mood.  There’s a lot of good going on in my life right now and also in the lives of those who I care about.  My sister, Jess, will be getting married within a year and is looking for houses with her fiance.  They’ll also be living in Long Island.  Yay!  I’m so happy to finally be living in the same area as her.  It’s been over 10 years now that we’ve been in different states!  She’ll be turning 30 next month and this girly right here has her 32nd (GASP) birthday on Thursday.  Where does the time go?!?!  We’re all getting together this Saturday for a family birthday party for me.  I’m looking forward to some of my mother’s wonderful cooking.  It’s the best!  I may be biased, but no one else’s seems to compare.  Next month we’ll do something special for Jess.  I’m also looking forward to meeting up with my sisters towards the end of next month for brunch and outlet shopping out east in Long Island.  We never get quality alone time together.  There will be lots of girl talk, laughs and wedding planning going on.  I can’t wait!

Ok, time to make that bank run.  If I have some time tonight there will be a post with a teaser from my time in Mexico.  Then, over the course of this week and next I’ll do a full day by day recap for you.  I can’t wait to share my pictures with you.  I still don’t think they could ever do justice to what I saw with my own eyes.  Everything was absolutely beautiful.  I felt like I was in another world.  My boyfriend promised that we will visit again.  That’s one thing I’ll absolutely hold him to.  🙂

Hope the rest of your day is a great one!

Kim

Hola!

Hola Mis Amigos!

I’m back, tan and refreshed from the daily grind.  Oh how I wish I could rewind and spend another week in Mexico!! 

I’m sure you can imagine what a week away does to one’s desk at work.  I walked in this morning to my L-shaped desk being covered with various piles of papers.  There wasn’t even a note to explain what everything was.  I kept chipping away at the piles over the course of the day and am pleased with how I left things this afternoon.  I tried to work quickly because I had to rush out early to get to another knee doctor appointment.

Of course, you know they took me late, even though I battled traffic while biting my nails in order to get there on time.  What made me smile was realizing that: #1- The sun was still shining & #2 – There wasn’t a flake of snow to be seen anywhere on the ground.  I smell spring!  Bring it on!!

After speaking with my doctor we decided that I should have a cortisone shot in my knee.  Hopefully, this will turn things around for me; otherwise, I’ll have to go in for an MRI and who knows what that might bring.  😦  It is feeling a bit better now and I hope it continues to progress this way.  The doctor ok’d me for lower body exercise and cardio if I get through this week without any pain.  Fingers crossed!  I am getting antsy not being allowed to workout.

Currently, I’m sitting in Starbuck’s parking lot, sipping a tall nonfat misto.  My landlord is showing my apartment so I had to make myself scarce.  Of course, I forgot to bring my camera with me to show you all how beautiful everything was in Mexico.  I promise to get those pics up for you over the course of the week.  We did a lot of relaxing in the sun, cooling off in the water, taking in the scenery, laughing with each other and even went on an adventure outside of the resort.  All I can say is that I may or may not have been scared to death more than a few times during the adventure.  I’m alive and proud of myself though.  What a way to end my 31st year!

Now, I’m going to make a quick grocery store run because my fridge is practically bare.  I need to keep in mind that I’m moving in a few weeks and should keep my purchases to only the things I absolutely need over this short span of time.  Going to the grocery store for me is like a little kid going to Disney World.  Well, maybe not quite that good, but I do love a good grocery run.  😉

Wishing you a wonderful week ahead!

Kim

Doctor’s Diagnosis

Happy Friday!

For some reason, it doesn’t feel much like Friday to me; although, I’m thankful that it is.  It might be because my mind is elsewhere today.

For one, I was hit with some disturbing/sad news about a friend this morning.  I don’t want to display it all for the world to see, but just ask if you can keep her in your thoughts. Thank you. 🙂

So, I made it to the doctor’s a few minutes early.  My mom met me there and we had some laughs in the waiting room.  I love that woman SO MUCH!  I have been blessed being born to her.  She and I are like two peas in a pod.  We will see something and be thinking the same thing.  Sometimes, it will be something we shouldn’t be laughing about, but know that we will if we even look at each other.  So, we’ll look in opposite directions in order to keep our composure.

After waiting a bit, the doctor called me in.  He fiddled and prodded with my knee and then sent me to the back for x-rays.  After the technician finished she looked at my chart and said, “you’re 31?!”  I confirmed and she stated that she thought I was in high school.  I’ll take it!! Haha. 😉

I limped back to the other room, so the doctor could take a look at the x-rays.  His diagnosis was early onset arthritis.  My face dropped.  Tears started to well in my eyes.  I think it hit me because my grandmother has bad knees and my mom does, as well.  I thought things along the line of, “will I ever be able to lift again?”  Do you believe that one of the first things I googled when I got home was what exercises to do if you have arthritis in your knee? LOL.  I have issues.  Anyway….what made me feel better was the doctor telling me that these things progress over years.  Decades, even.  He said he will be long retired, most likely, before I have any major issues.  He also said that there are many options, even before having to go in for surgery.

It will all be ok.  My knee is still swollen, but the doctor gave me some anti-inflammatory meds.  I hope things are back to normal by the time I leave for my trip.  For now, I’m babying my leg, taking the meds and icing (a bag of frozen peas were used last night).  I’m not allowed to do any lower body gym activity. No elliptical, treadmill, bike or lifting.  I guess I’ll just have to work my guns and abs out, to at least feel like I’m doing something.

My next appointment is the day after I return from Mexico.  By then, I hope I get the green light to work out again.  If all goes as planned I’ll still be able to start my challenge on Monday, March 14th.

My desk currently looks as if a bomb hit it.  Papers are everywhere.  I’m in the middle of producing the monthly rent bills for our tenants.  It can be a bit of a process, just because it is boring and time-consuming.  My day always flies on rent bill day though, so I won’t complain.

In other news, the recruiter called me during my commute to work this morning.  The other company is interested in me!  I’m interested to meet with them and see what vibe I get from the office and company.

Ok, gotta go.  Those rent bills are calling my name.

Wishing you a happy Friday and a wonderful weekend!

Kim