We made it to the mid-week hump! Still moving like molasses here, but at least there are less days remaining to the work week than those that need to be worked. Another plus? This is a long weekend for me with our office being closed on Monday. Hurray!
This is only my second day of blogging from my car and I can already tell you that it’s been a great outlet for me. Stepping away from that desk of mine and the craziness inside the office does a world of good. I feel like a load is lifted off of my shoulders.
Right before I headed out here I received an e-mail from a coworker that annoyed me. Steam blew through my ears, I vented to a coworker friend of mine and told her “With that I’m off to my car!” She laughed and told me to run.
I have to say, if not for anything I’ve made two true friends while working here. I’ve also picked up a lot of knowledge for future use, if you get what I mean. The friendships are most important to me though. Those two friends have gotten me through many tough days. Then, they’d send me off to Rob, who they knew would help in mending the wounds of the day.
Anyway, I couldn’t sleep last night. If you follow me on twitter you know that I got an iPhone 4s yesterday. Between the excitement of setting it up and also drinking a Starbucks’ Venti Awake tea an hour before bedtime (smart, right?) my eyes just wouldn’t close. I gave Rob a kiss (he was already out of it) and headed back to the living room to watch a few shows I had saved on the DVR (The Vampire Diaries & The Secret Circle, if you must know.)
Yes, I’m a wannabe teenager. 😉 I love The Vampire Diaries, but I’m not sure how I’m feeling about The Secret Circle right now. Time will tell though.
Close to 2 AM my eyelids started drooping. At this point my stomach was feeling off. I slept on and off until 5:45 AM, when my alarm sounded to get up for my training session at the gym. I SO didn’t feel like getting up, but I did. The trainer ended up being late AGAIN! I think he knows I’m getting tired of it.
People tend to take advantage of my kindness, but if you push me to a certain point you don’t even know what’s coming at you.
The wrath of Kim. I think the roll of my eyes this morning gave him an inkling that I’m nearing the end of my rope. Anyway, whenever he does show we have a great session and this didn’t disappoint. I walked out feeling like I’d gotten something accomplished before my day truly got started.
Today, I wanted to touch upon a little something I mentioned yesterday. I quickly stated that I had no resolutions regarding weight loss and that’s true. I don’t remember a year where weight loss hasn’t been a goal of mine. Honestly, I’m in a good place right now with my weight. Would I be happy if I lost a pound or two? I’m not going to lie, I would, but I’m not focusing on it.
After so many years of abusing my body and mentally draining myself with calculations and macronutrient counts I realized that I was just plain over it. To focus so long and hard on something and have it get me nowhere just isn’t worth it. I know I’ve said it before, but I’m my own worst enemy. I’m my own worst critic, as well.
So, I decided about a month ago that I wasn’t going to let this defeat me any longer. I had to make the effort to let go & release control. I joined Weight Watchers online because I felt like it would allow me to feel safe with my eating while learning balance and moderation. I’ve gone to such extremes in the past that I rarely ever enjoy food. I don’t remember what many things taste like (because I made them off-limits to myself) and going to restaurants or other people’s houses became be traumatic events for me. I don’t want this for myself, Rob, my family or my future children. I want to live in the moment, enjoy life and maybe even enjoy a piece of cake if I so choose.
I want to be able to share an ice cream cone with Rob on a random Sunday, after a day of boating.
Usually, I’m the person in the group saying that they’ll only have an iced coffee or something calorie free. We only get one life and we should enjoy special moments.
The point is, I needed my mind to be clear from the restrictions I inflicted on it. I tend to eat mostly healthy as it is, but if I choose to enjoy a special treat every so often I should be able to….WITHOUT guilt. Weight Watchers has been great for me and I look forward to defeating my eating issues by continuing with it.
Errr….it’s about that time again. Time to head back inside for a few more hours. You can bet I’ll be racing out as quickly as possible to make it home and spend some cuddle time with my man. 🙂
I hope you’re having a good day!
What steps you’re taking to work on issues you deal with?
Would you like to see some of my typical daily eats?
I want to know. Let me hear from you. 🙂