My Security Blankets

Hi Friends!

How’s your week going so far?  It’s only Tuesday, but I’m already exhausted.  My boss leaves for Italy today and was in an all day (literally 9-5) meeting yesterday.  I had to come in early to insure that I would actually get some time with him. Then, I had to stay almost 2 hours late in order to go over everything he wanted me to work on while he’s away.

My body can’t keep up with the stress and hours here.  On top of it all, I’m definitely not paid enough to do what I do and work the number of hours that I work.  I love the majority of the people who I work with, but other than that this isn’t really worth it.  Rob has commented a number of times that he hates my job.  It isn’t even my having to work late as much as his having to deal with my being so stressed out when I get home.

Confession #1: I used to have a security blanket growing up.

When I was a baby, my Dad tried to soothe me to sleep one night. He put a blanket over his shoulder, laid me over it and rubbed my back while saying “Do naw-nees Kimmy.”  I doubt that naw-nees is a real word or if that’s how you would spell it if it were. What I do know is that naw-nees meant to go to sleep.  What my dad never would have guessed is that I would relate naw-nees to the blanket and that from then on my security blanket would be called “Naw-Nees”.

Confession #2: “Used to” is a thing of the past, in the confession above.

Let it be known that the blanket (aka Naw-Nees) has come out from hiding for the past month or so.,,,,just about the time I started to have eyelid twitches.  Rob cringes when he sees me with it because he knows why I have it.  I keep half of it at the house and the other half in the car.  I’m 32!  What’s wrong with this picture? If I ever confess to sucking on a pacifier let me know that I’m being ridiculous, ok?  😉

This weekend, I spent time with the mother of all security blankets.  I call her Mom.  I’ll tell ya, there’s nothing like being with my mom.  We get along so well and enjoy each other’s company immensely.  For me, my mom has always brought a sense of security.  No matter what age I’ve been, I could always call my mom and know that my problem would either be solved or that she would just be able to put my mind at ease until the problem was resolved.  She’s just good like that. 🙂

We made a stop at some of our favorite places while I was there, but didn’t get to hit everything that we had planned on. I then cried almost the entire way home to NY. I miss her so much and I miss CT too.  😦

Of course, I had my Rob waiting for me back at the house.  He’s another wonderful security blanket in my life.  He knew something was wrong when he saw me and when he questioned if I was ok the floodgates reopened.  The poor guy was wearing a white shirt which I quickly messed with my tears and smeared makeup. Eventually, after a bunch of hugs, he had me laughing and being silly again, in our usually Rob-Kim fashion.

I’m looking forward to more feelings of security when we visit CT this weekend for my sister’s engagement party.  Once there, I’ll be surrounded by everyone that I care about, all in one place.  Rob & my blanket will just have to do until then.  😉

Hope you’re having a great day!

Kim

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2 thoughts on “My Security Blankets

  1. Awe, sorry you’re having a rough time. I think it’s ok to have some security blankets when you need a little extra TLC. Hopefully the busy-ness of work will make the week fly by. If nothing else, you have a fun weekend to look forward to! XO

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