How are you?!?! I feel like it’s been forever since I’ve been able to write more than a few words.
Let me start off by saying that work is ABSOLUTELY CRAZY right now! Yesterday started off with a tantrum at the house with Rob following me around like a puppy that was sad for its owner. He gave me lots of hugs and then sent me on my way. I pouted the entire drive with tears streaming down my cheeks. More tears followed when a coworker stopped by my cubicle to see how I was doing. I tried to be strong and say I was fine, but I’m a horrible liar and she saw right through me. When she said, “you don’t seem fine” the tears started flowing again. After a pep talk with her I was feeling a little better and got down to business.
Have you ever been so overwhelmed by work that you’re almost paralyzed? You don’t know where to even start? That’s how I felt yesterday. There are so many random projects I’m working on, but it’s more my coworker’s work that has me stressed. I don’t mind working hard. Not. One. Bit! It’s more that there are so many unanswered questions with her work and I don’t know the background behind it in order to make the best judgement.
I just have to breathe. The 31st will be here soon enough and then I took September 1st & 2nd off to enjoy the long Labor Day weekend. We might even take a trip somewhere so stay tuned. Fingers crossed for some great beach weather. 😉
Anyway, it is what it is and I’m trying not to let it get to me. The only thing that got me through yesterday was knowing that I planned something just for me at the end of the day. I had another session with my trainer and let me tell you it was just what I needed! I walked into the session like Debbie Downer and walked out with much higher spirits. The sessions are only 30 minutes but they whip my ass! We do a bunch of functional training and James also helps in stretching me out. I feel like my posture has improved after only 3 sessions!
I felt like I could have been a contestant on the Biggest Loser last night. James had me whipping ropes, throwing balls, lifting kettle bells, using the TRX system, balancing on stability balls and using the rowing machine in-between. For someone who has always felt like the strong girl in the gym, I sure felt like a weakling last night. 😉 My afternoon snack literally almost made its way back up, but I held it down. After my session I had to lie down for about an hour before I could down anything.
I can honestly say that I could feel that I needed to eat more. I think it was the first time that I realized how important it is to fuel yourself with enough good calories because of how I felt during the workout. Everyone has been telling me to eat more, but this was the first time my body felt the damage of not eating enough. I’m working on it, friends. Today I brought extra food with me to do just that. I added a protein shake between breakfast and lunch. My stomach is still full, but I’m hoping that by the time I’m finished with desk coverage my belly will be hungry for lunch. If not, I’m just going to add some higher calorie (healthy) foods into the mix.
James told me to just try it for 2 weeks and see what happens. He promises all good things and I’m willing to take the chance. A little bit of fear sneaks in from time to time. Fear that the extra calories will make me gain weight and all of my hard work will be for nothing. My fear of gaining at this point in time is mostly because I have a bunch of fun events coming up in the near future. My sister’s engagement party is next month and we’ll be going bridesmaid dress shopping in October. I also have two weddings I’ll be attending this fall along with all of the fun things that surround weddings (bridal parties, bachelorette parties, etc).
I know adding the calories is the answer to my problems though. I just have to have faith! I mean, what damage could I really do in two weeks, right? Rob’s response to me was, “You’ve been doing it your way for over a decade and you aren’t happy. Why don’t you try someone elses way for a change?” You know what? He’s right! 🙂
So, that’s the story, friends. In 10 short minutes I’ll be sitting back at my desk, hidden behind piles of papers, spreadsheets and more folders than I know what to do with. I’m going to try to catch up on some other blogs since I’ve been such a bad blog friend lately.
Have a great day!