Hey There!
How’s this Tuesday treating you? Mine has been pretty good so far, but anxiety is starting to set in. Remember a few weeks back when I mentioned I’d be covering for a coworker while she’s in Italy for 2 weeks? Well, the time has come my friends. She leaves tomorrow afternoon and will return on the 30th.
It isn’t that I mind the extra work. In fact, not one bit. It’s more that I’m nervous about making a mistake. You know, me and that perfectionist tendency of mine.
The past 2 days coworkers have commented about my facial expression here. They’re asking if I’m ok. Haha. I don’t mean to wear my feelings on my face. Usually, I’m able to pretty easily hide fear/sadness/anger with a smile. I guess I’m really letting this get to me and I have to stop. I know that I’m capable and I would never knowingly let something fall through the cracks. I’m going to take it one step at a time and after the two weeks are over with I’ll have even more skills to add to my ever-growing resume.
Now that I got the worry off of my shoulders let’s take a look at some positive things. Rob and I are really in cleaning mode. We tackled a few more tasks last night, which ended with more closet space for yours truly. Believe me, I need it! I had winter jackets taking up an entire corner of the guest room. Now, they’re all neatly hung and out of the way. I can’t tell you how much better that makes me feel.
I started, Catching Fire, the 2nd book in the Hunger Games trilogy last night.
From the first sentence, I fell right back into the pace of Suzanne Collins’ writing style and immersed myself back into the life of Katniss Everdeen. I only tore myself away from my kindle when it was time for lights out.
Only two short (I hope) hours to go and I’ll be on my way home. It’s my boss’ birthday tomorrow and I’m hoping to whip up some cupcakes to bring in for him. I also need to get decent sleep since I have my first full training session tomorrow. I’m excited!
I sent my trainer a food log for the past few days and also went more into depth with my eating/weight history. I’m trying to determine if I will buy a pack of sessions with him and that will all depend on how much effort he puts into me. I don’t want a one size fits all program. I want one specific to my own needs and from what I learned last Friday it seems like that’s exactly what I’m going to get.
I didn’t speak about this on the blog, but recently I tried to go the online training route. Even though I explained the issues that I had/have they didn’t want to budge with their system. I knew the program would only result in binge issues down the road. In fact, I did have a major problem one weekend when Rob was away and I told myself “NO MORE”. My health is more important to me than trying to live with a certain program just because others are and I am no longer going to subject myself to things that I know aren’t the right fit. I beat myself up for not being as strong-willed as I would have liked, but then I allowed myself to move on. No one program is right for everyone. I’ve tried this program a number of times (I’m very persistent)and it ends up horribly for me each time. So, I’m finally listening to my inner voice and finding what WILL work for me.
We are each unique. Never belittle yourself for not being able to do something the way another person is able to. One size doesn’t fit all. Find what works for YOU!
That’s all folks! Time to get back to my work.
- Do you have any fabulous cupcake recipes to share? I’m trying to decide what to make for my boss.
- Have you ever found yourself in a situation where something that seemed to work for others didn’t work for you? What route did you end up taking to reach your goal?
I look forward to hearing from you!
<3
Kim




